Just venting

Birthday thoughs

This probably will not be the first, but I also believe it will not be the last birthday I spend alone.

But this year I feel a little more alone.

The first time was the first year I came here, and it was still a new year, with many new things happening, and I still had things to explore and do. I went to lunch alone, bought a cake for myself, and did all the rituals you can imagine. My family called me, and I felt that closeness.

This year, I will still have that closeness with my family; that will never change. But a lot has changed since my first year here until today. I made friends here, I completed my employment contract, and, yes, I am now unemployed. My birthday also falls on a weekday. I am taking a course that lasts all morning and already interferes with my plans to go out for lunch, as it ends right at lunchtime. And crazy as I am, I scheduled a job interview for my birthday in the afternoon, so even though I wanted to go out for lunch, it would be difficult because I have to study for the interview. I thought about calling my friends for dinner, but most of them live far away and I don't want to disrupt anyone's life. So, I am stuck in this dilemma.

I am not sad; I know I am loved and have people close to me, and I am super glad I have this interview. My birthday is significant to me, but it's just a very complicated time.

Just a picture of my last birthday cake.